odawg

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 17:14:58 GMT

home, trying to figure out what's goong on 2day, should be graduating soon I hope. with me theres always the possibilty ill fuck things up. not sure what else to say maybe more later.

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 07:08:33 GMT

I think i mite have a job lined up for after college!! so awesome!!

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 06:49:49 GMT

is there ne point in going out if you're still gonna be lonely :\

living with the stars

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 02:26:16 GMT

So I'm looking to do an internship in LA this summer. I've been looking around trying to see where I can stay. My mom has a couple friends who know people work in Hollywood so shes been asking if any of them know of any places i can stay.
my mom calls me last nite and say, "My friends knows of a place you can probably stay. I wanted to check with you to see if its ok. I'm like, "well where is it." She says, "its steven segal's house." I'm like what the fuck! thats amazing, yea i'm defintly interested in staying with him. I'm not a fan of his work or any thing, but OMG, hes a fucking action stars, imagine all the people i can meet and connections I can make living with him, I don't wanna jinx it, but this is sounding like an awesome summer.

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 23:39:20 GMT

one update from my sucky monday. Theres this girl who goes to fiu in miami who i'd been talking online for a couple months, she's so beautiful and sweet. Well over the entire xmas break we were talking and she kept saying how I was the sweetest nices guy ever and how she wanted me 2 be her b/f and spend all nite cuddling, when I got back she told me the nite before I came back her siters b/f friend told her i he really liked her and wanted 2 try to have a relationship and she said yes, that was a crushing blow, we did meet eventually and spent an hour in an empty parking lotnear her house making out at 330 in morning, it was amazing she said she had a great time not sure what to believe, the next nite we went to see hostel she held me close during the times she was scared and we kissed alot, she slide my hand into her bra and had me rub her breasts and lightly panted while i did it, once again an amazing time, she said she had a great time. afterwards she said we couldnt see each other again. I talked 2 her on monday and she said her and the guy are b/f g/f now and it would be best for both of us if we didn't talk 2 each other again and i tried to forget her. anotr crushing blow, not sure where to go now, seems ive been condemened to a semester alone in my room, like a prisoner only I've committed no crime. the weekend before that I had my buddy done here to help me with a movie, it was going bad andi wasn't sure I would get it done and he said look I came done here to get this movie done and were gonna find a way and we did! when I got rejected from lmu and had no place turn and thought I was finished my other friend said no we'll find a way lets go back to the drawing board, and I found um. the problem now is theres no one here to pick me up from the gutter. kind of ironic this girl had an away message she'd put up where said what do u do when the only person who can make u stop crying is the one whos making u cry, well now im exactly in that position. the only person who could have picked me up from a situation this bad was her and now she turned her back on me. guess I wasn't good enough. I'd ask for advice on the situation but im pretty sure no one is reading this. so back to my own prison.

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 01:36:15 GMT

today was a classic annoyingly lousy day. I had to be up to take my buddy to the airport, and had to get up at 6 am to do it. I miss him he now that hes gone, I seem to have no allies here at um. On the way back I got stuck in crappy traffic. My car went over 100,000 miles I was hoping to get a pic of the odometer when it did but i didnt realize the airport was so far and didnt bring my camera :/ oh well maybe next car. I still haven't recieved my new atm card from the bank, so no money for me, If I dont have it by wednesday im gonna be wicked pissed! When I got back from the airport and had breakfast I took a nap it lasted way longer then it should of so I didnt get up till 2. I went to take the video equipment back that I used this weekend on a shoot, but didnt have time to take it all back and they got all pissy like its suppose 2 all be back 2day at noon and I should have remembered that cause it was explained last semester in the class. That was last fucking semester, I barely remember how to use the camera, how am is suppose to remember some thing mentioned in passing 4 months ago!
On the subject of the film my buddy was here this weekend to help me with it, it was so fucking stressful the first dayi loaded the camera wrong and nothing came out, then my actor quit on me and i had to scramble to find a new actor, by the skin of my teeth it got done, all my shots probably suck or didnt come out, but oh well its filmed.
I had a pretty fun time with my buddy he was shocked evenmore so than me at how insipid every one here is and how many 70,000 dollars cars there are. we went to one party we won 2 games of beer pong he said every one there sucked, so we retired the undefeated champs after games. during the second game this girl came up to me and started talking to me, it turns her gay friend thought I was cute and wanted her to hook us up. I said i dont really, and she said oh i feel like such a jack ass and i said its ok dont worry about it,and that was that. best story ever!

question

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 06:34:08 GMT

i no no one reads my lj but in the even that ne 1 is I have a question. If people r prickish or unfair or some thing of that nature 2 u, is it ok 2 take any pleasure a happinesss in whatever mifortune or feelings of being down they may incounter?

ne 1 out there feel free 2 answer

new year?

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 17:25:17 GMT

its been a long december and theres reason to believe maybe this year will be better than the last.
my new years eve was kinda boring, went to my friends house, just him his brother and his mom, whatever had some food thats about it, the food kinda went to my stomach and i was feeling a little sick. i went home and at 330 went to bed, my friend then calls me and tells me his lady friend who is leaving in a couple hours needs a ride to the airport. theres a 3 hour wait on cabs, so im there only option. I was willing to do, but my mom whos car i was using said no way cause it was snowing out and she claims i cant drive in the snow. Martin kept begging saying he needed this, she kept saying no, she said she was tired and wanted 2 sleep so she wouldnt talk 2 him and im stuck in the middle. eventually he miraculous gets a cab and i go back 2 bed. what a great start to the new year, for me to poop on! only 365 days to till 07, oh well.

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 03:51:53 GMT

man i always say it but i really hate people, there is no end 2 how much they suck! and they can't admit how much they suck. work is tiring as always, how do people wear ties, its like yer choking yerself! my neck hurts so much. im watching degrassi rite now, emma really reminds me of my ex g/f not really sure what to make of it.

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 22:37:40 GMT

well 2 day is the 2 year anniversary of my friends death I still miss him, rest in peace Ian Souther you were one of a kind

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 03:01:22 GMT

well its thanksgiving, last year a girl wrote in her lj that she was thankful she was thankful I guess that's what I'll say 2, I think there's some thing else, but i can't remember its probably not that good any way. thanksgiving was kinda boring im getting to fat any way so another excuse to eat. My beard trimmer was dammaged in my bag on the flight home, iw as starting to really like that trimmer 2 oh well guess ill have to get a new 1. so far this trip home has been kinda eh, went to my old job today about seeing about getting it back for xmas break the woman i need to talk 2 wasnt there gotta call 2morrow. people still suck, god people are insincere its ridiculous, they utter numerous empty statements so they can feel better about themselves! It makes never able to figure out whos for real and who's just a richard or what have u. well happy thanksgiving every one.

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 23:41:14 GMT

you know if assholes could fly the university of miami would be an airport! this semester has become a total disaster, my courses aren't going that well, i got into one course 2 weeks late cause i couldnt find any one in the advising office to advise me on what course to take and it all went down hiil from there. The other week I was taking off a live strong bracelet my dad gave me, thing fuckin snapped! very symbolic of how this semester has gone, kind of ironic 2 i guess. people continue to frustrate me, im so tired of dealing with flakes and richards! maybe my thanksgiving break will be awesome, probably not but alls i gots is hope.

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 20:07:56 GMT

do you ever get the feeling every one is on stupid pills?

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 04:21:06 GMT

the real life hitch came to speak at my school last nite, it was actually pretty good he had alot of good advice maybe it'll turn my life around haha, probably not. last nite i was trying to get some sleep cause i had an exam today, around 330 am i hear this crying sound coming from outside in the hall i ask my roommate if he hears that he eventually says ya, it sounds like a girl is balling, I peek my head out this girl who lives 2 doors down was sitting in the hall against the wall on her cell phone balling her eyes muttering some phone every few seconds i decide to go out there and ask are u ok she answers yes and I can go back to be now, i tell her she should gett some sleep she smiles, it was my polite way of saying shut up so i can sleep. I can't imagine what the hell she was doing at 330 and who she was talking to. was there a death in the family did a b/f break up with her, is she having a break down? if a family memeber died or some thing like that I feel really bad for her, but if its some stupid jerk dumping her she needs to be so dramatic and let us sleep. well who knows. hope this weekend kicks ass I need a good weekend!

on the outside

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 07:07:21 GMT

while the hurrican came through first one for me in 16 years, tons of stories to tell about this one, but another time. the greenday show was 2nite, i was low on gas and because of the stupid hurricane no stations were open, I was really worried i wouldnt make it to the show and would end up missing greenday again! I did find one station open but there was a line down the block. What really fucking sucked is that every one would put like 30 dollars in their tank even though there was a huge as line and they didnt need 30 dollars, more gas stations will be open 2morrow, so just what u need for 2nite and fill up 2morrow when there arent long lines! its pretty fucking simple inconsiderate duches! i spent almost an hour and a half in line and missed all butlike 10 of Greendays songs, they were still awesome for ten songs. when i gotback my roomie called me to tell me people were in the room across the hall chillen to come there, since i was of age and no one else was i supplied the alcohol they played some card drinking games, then every one seemed to start hooking up accept me, made me feel kinda left out, even when i supply the alcohol still cant get any, same situation just different faces? at one point the 3 girls were cuddling with three guys they'd taken a liking to, my roommate was showing some other guy a card trick and was sitting alone in a corner by myself. I can't complain 2much, this is a thousand times better then last semester, i just hope the progress gets a little better.

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 21:37:22 GMT

well as always i seem to feel frustrated, I'm so tired of dealing with flakes and richards! some times I feel like i've been betrayed by every one. Lately ive been thinking I can't wait to go back to UM cause hopefully this will be a good year, and every thing at home seems to have fizzled out. I'm pretty sure no ones reading this its pretty futile. I've always tried to avoid being in places where i'm not wanted and I'm starting to feel live journal is one of those places. So as a result of things I think i mite take a break from LJ for a little while, so take care all you ljers! :)

year to year

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 19:29:19 GMT

its interesting on each day to think back to a year ago on that day, and then see how things changed from a year ago. Well any way this summer has been a total bore fest last summer though not great was much better then this one, this one ahs been a total waste of time Blah!!!! I really hate people its getting ridiculous, they just totally frustrate me, I'm really running out of patience for people, I really have no idea what to do any more, not that I ever had a great idea of what to do in the first place to begin with.

so much to say blah

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 16:21:33 GMT

I went to the hot stove cool music fenway show last sat, it was a fun time each person only played a few songs. buffalo tom and theo was good, so peter gammons and tim wakefield in there band. bronson arroyo was solid he just did a few accoustic solo's his singing is solid but his gutiar playing was a little klunky. the show finished up with fountains of wayne, peter gammons introduced them by saying that rachel hunter would not be on stage lol.

Still hate people my god they really frustrate me, why do people suck so much! I really miss me my dock, kind of ironic the only person from lj who offered any condolences on dock's death was my liar of an ex, guess no one else reads my lj. that about sums it all up.

yester i went to the batting cages as i commonly do it was annoying you had to go the desk to get a bat from them and the one they gave me was to small, the machine ran out of balls so i had to wait for it to reload, on my way to return my bat some little kid was with his dad, he asked why did i have a smaller bat then he did lol i was thinking the same thing myself.
before that i'd had to go see my dad to get a check for my summer classes tuition, my dad was on a confrence call when I got there and was really pissed that i was there, oh well typical from my dad. hopefully some thing cool will happen this weekend, but probably not.

every one I know goes away in the end

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 03:54:01 GMT

It really amazes me how much people suck, why do they all suck so much and are so dishonest and insincere?!
I guess that's why people like pets always there for you, yer honest buddy mans best friend. I had a cat when i was a little kid named mueller. I loved him he was awesome, but my mom had a tempermental jerk b/f who was algeric to it, so the b/f stayed for the time being and the cat was sent away :( I've never really forgiven my mom for that one.
I didn't get to have another cat intill last august when my mom finally got me and her b/f (not tha same one) cats my cat was named dock, they gave him that name cause they found him on a shipping dock, I like the idea of that that was how he got his name, it seemed almost heroic, dock was a maine coon beautiful just like me lying around the house all day expecting every one else to take care off him, he was a little stuborn like me, I loved him so much. last nite i was on my computer and my mom called she said dock was hit by a car and i better come outside he was dead,neko (my moms b/f's, his younger brother in some aspects) came up and started trying to wake him, he didn't realize his brother was dead :( they use to fight all the time, cause neko would try to start something with dock for fun even though dock was so much bigger, they were so close. we burried him today. I guess im just a miserable failure, I failed you dock i'm sorry! I should have taken better care of you, im so sorry :( if there is a cat heaven, who's ever running it you better take care of my dock! if there is such a thing as reincarnation please reincarnate him as some thing nice, some thing i will some day come across.

R.P.I.
Dock

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 18:35:45 GMT

well my fourth of july itself was pretty boring, though the days leading up to it were kinda fun.
I was suppose to go to the hamptons, but my car wasnt insured yet so i had to wait a day, and my friend in the hamptons decided he wanted to come here instead, thanks dad for lollygaging on the insurance oh well im getting insurance for nothing out of my pocket guess i can't complain.
friday me and my buddy went out with his dad it took us awhile to decide on a bar so in the end we werent at the bar for very long. sat their was a noise board party in sommerville. me and miles didnt want to risk driving drunk so we left out cars at home and got rides from his dad who was driving a cab that nite. my mom was suppose to get there later so she'd drive us home, but then she called saying she was kinda tired and didnt feel like going i put miles on who explained the situation, she ended up having to come the party was ok thought kinda dead at the point when we got there. before the party me and miles played mini golf and bet the loser had to pay for the winners kids college I played like shit and ended up losing, so i told miles id be giving him a visactame in his sleep. and since we didnt specify which college i guess ill be paying for his kid to go to mass bay community college.
at the party i starting mix drinks and lost track of how many id had so the next morning i woke up with a wicked bad hang over, i was suppose to drive with miles to new hampshire to see the minor league team their play, but miles talked me into trying to get game day standing room sox tix it was futile, miles put it best "i liked it better when they sucked and you could get tickets" so no baseball for me, i also ended up vomitting outside a gas station due to how sick i was. later on miles and his friend david came over and we grilled it up. none of us knew how to get the grill going so we's keep doosing more lighting fluid on it, we almost blew up the can lol. we were gonna go down town to see some prre fourth fire works but it was 2 crowded so we watched from a hill the view wasnt that great and the works were kinda lame. on the fourth i did nothing miles was busy the whole day no one else was around so i drove around then went home and chilled there bored as hell. kinda of a blah and to a weekend.

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 21:15:57 GMT

the new car runs great it so sweet to have ride kinda low but thats cool. still more or less broke got a letter from a place i interviewed at a few weeks ago telling me thanks for interviewing but they wont be hiring me. goin to visit my buddy in the hamptons this weekend should be an awesome time get to meet up with some friends i aint seen in ages :) cause I have been pretty lonely lately not having much contact with any one in my age range :(
in honor of the upcoming fourth of july ive decided to give a college scholarship to any one college age or younger reading this entry. (totally money that will be given out zero :) ) this has been another exercise in futility.

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 05:14:54 GMT

I finally got a new car! its a 96 celica so sweet I love it any around what to come take a ride with me let me know :) gotta an early call for filming tommorrow listening to this painfully bad dialogue some one save me, god i wish i could rewrite it. i still hate people god they suck so much, i've run out of words to describe my frustration I'm left to make sound and expressions! in, or not sure if im the most unapreciated person alive, or the most worthless cause i figure its gotta be one of the 2, if any one has any ideas let me, please no annoymous slander! well I have to go to bed now have a great weekend every one!

blah!!!!!!

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 00:41:51 GMT

Today we started shooting on this independent film im working on, it means for the next month im gonna have to get up really early on weekends to be there for filming that kinda sucks but hopefully it will be worth it. It's deffered pay so I only get paid if it sells the director seems confidant that it will, but personally I think his dialogue sucks and it kinda concerns me, its a good story and seems to be good with setting up shots and directing them so thats good, I almost wanna steal the script and rewrite the dialogue!
I was on the train going home from the filming today and this girl sitting near me was just so hot. some one else mite not have thought she was that hot but she just had every thing going for her that turns me on! then she got up at her stop and got off and left and just like that she was gone, I always wonder in situations like that should I be more asserive and forward and try to talk to the person, i'd have no idea what to say to start up the convo, I usually don't, thats probably why im alone so much :( she probably had a b/f or wouldnt have been interested since most aren't or just wouldnt have been my type so its all specualtion brought on by some thing shallow and superficial like looks.but still she just looked so hot!
the more i go along in life the more i seem to become frustrated with people, do all these people realize they suck so much, they don't seem to that part of whats annoying! and why do they all suck so much, damm you god for making me a person who can't cope with all this lonelyness :( it really cuts down on productivity and makes me completly miserable. Miserable and accomplishing nothing, how does that sound? well any way I'm going to liquor store if you've read this entry you probably know y lol, later.

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 23:48:00 GMT

well life is still boring and pointless, Im really getting tired of being back home at first it was cool now its just the same boring crap every day sitting around the house. Maybe im starcrossed every where i go I seem to feel miserable, of course most of the situations did actually they all did. UM placed me on academic probabtion for reason I think are stupid it felt like a total slap in the face, and I feel like im getting disrespected kinda sucks since its a 37000 a yhear school, would they treat me like this at the lexus dealership? I'll never know since I can't afford one since I give all my money to them. speaking of cars the car search is still annoying me, I hate how you can never get in touch with these people, its like cmon i wanna buy some thing from you don't you wanna make a sale?!
It's funny to hear people talk about feeling alone an unapreciated when they have a zillion people commenting on they're journal and probably wanting to hang out with them, I've had one comment on mine in the past 2 months! I wonder what level that puts me at?

Wed, 25 May 2005 00:27:55 GMT

I always feel guilt about how i seem to sleep till 1130 if not noon, even when other people at college and back home are sleeping till 3 pm on weekends. then something occured to me. maybe im not really feeling guilty about it, as much as im feeling depressed about the fact i really have no reason to get up, it doesn't seem to matter if I get up or not. all that awaits me is a day sitting around the house. no car or mode of transit to take me around, no one out their waiting to see me, no jobs out there waiting for me, I can get up and play play station or i can keep sleeping either will the end the result will be the same. that seems to be the way my life seems to play out. no matter what i do the end result is the same depressing one i dont want, im still unwanted, im still seemingly destined for a boulevard of broken dreams. if the end results is gonna be the same no matter, I don't really see what the point in trying is. mite as well work on my ps2 all star baseball dynasty atleast at that im succesful.